chronic...

i've had a headache almost everyday for pretty much the last two weeks. it's getting old. i think the cause is the stress i've been feeling. i'm sure compared to some people my life is not stressful at all, but for me i am stressed. as most, well some, of you know i've been here in utah doing my internship. call me crazy {and i can hardly believe i'm saying it myself} but now that the time has come for me to be done here in utah, i do not want to go home.

i have desperately been trying to figure out what i am going to do, where i'm going, what job, where to live...blah blah blah. all of that. it has not been fun. i want to stay in utah but i can't unless i have another job...which i don't. i don't want to move back in with my parents because i am a 25 yr old college graduate! but it's too expensive to live on my own in western washington so that's really the only thing i can do.

plus of moving home--i have a job and i make good money...i guess the fact that i will have NO LIFE will work to my advantage, financially at least, because i will nt have anything to spend a penny on since i will have no friends, and not a lot of time to do anything.

yes i whined and complained and was miserable when i first moved here, but i have friends now and a life and fun things to do and i don't want to start over from scratch again.

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ALSO...i will have to work every other sunday because it's "not fair to the girls for me to have every sunday off" even though there are 2 other girls who have every sunday off. STUPID. i could go on for a while about this but i will contain myself.

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so yeah...unless i get the job at the museum that i applied for {which i honestly don't think i will} i will be packing up my car and driving home next thursday. ugh...