on being pregnant...

first off...it's still a little weird and surreal. does that ever go away? does it ever really SEEM real? like it's not strange to think 'oh yeah, there's going to be a real live screaming cooing pooping eating baby at the end of this.' because right now i have to keep reminding myself that. still so crazy to think there is a real {reaaaal} little human in my tummy.

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besides that? honestly i can't complain. 

i know i definitely did between weeks 6 and 12, but from what i hear about other people's pregnancies mine has really not been bad in the slightest. 

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we {can i say we?} found out we were pregnant conference weekend. after hanging out at the in-laws during the day watching conference we got home late and i figured what the heck, i'll take a test. {i had taken one on friday and it was negative but my period still hadn't started.} i didn't really think i was and that i should just not take it so i didn't have to buy more tests. but i did. i waited and waited and then i thought i saw what could only be described the the faintest line you've ever seen. 

matt came downstairs from our room and i said, 'can you see this? or am i imagining things?' he looked and then looked at me and asked what that means. i said i think it meant we were pregnant. his eyes got kind of wide and i think we both didn't really know what to do or how to react haha.

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i didn't want to expect too much and the line was seriously SO faint, so i took another test a couple days later and the line went a little darker and a few days after that it was a SOLID line pretty much instantaneously. we were really pregnant!

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everyone said morning sickness would hit at 6 weeks and like clockwork i felt like crap at 6 weeks. i was lucky and had no actual throwing up which i'm grateful for. but feeling nauseous and disgusting and unnaturally exhausted 24/7 doesn't feel great either. as quickly as it hit it stopped again at week 12. thankyouverymuch. 

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the second trimester has been pretty dreamy. i've felt great. food sounded good again {though i've only recently felt like cooking again - - poor matt}, i didn't fall asleep during every staff meeting, i felt like myself. this mixed in with the fact that i still wasn't really showing at all, hadn't gained any weight, and i didn't feel baby move until 22 weeks made me keep wondering...i'm still pregnant right? everyone kept asking me how i felt and i had to remind myself 'yes that's right, i'm pregnant...i feel great thank you!' 

we got to find out gender at 20 weeks. i was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO beyond eager to know. how some people wait until the birth is beyond me. why? WHY? i don't get it. but i was so excited to find out it was a girl! as one of 6 girls in my family i knew i need to have at least 1 daughter. i don't know what to do with boys! 

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i'm currently closing in on the third trimester which i'm eager and excited for, but nervous and scared and feeling unprepared. nursery organizing/getting together is in full swing which is good. we have a car seat...good also. but man there's still so much we need to get. baby girl's constant kicks throughout the day remind me that she's there...that and the fact that i pee 16 times a day, can't wear my pants anymore, and i can't eat a full size meal without feeling like i'm about to pop. 

it's fun getting to share those little kicks with matt at night as he feels my tummy and keeps asking, is that her? is that her?!

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and matt. seriously though, i lucked out with this guy. big time. majorly, completely, totally, big time. he's been patient with me and cooked and cleaned and rubbed my back and my feet and brings me a skirt to work when i tried to wear pants and they were just too uncomfortable so he goes out of his way to make me happy and comfortable. how did i get so lucky? how did this little lady get so lucky to have such a daddy? {this is where my pregnancy emotions are going to make me start crying because i'm getting all mushy ha}

all in all, pregnancy has treated me well so far. it's an exciting and nervous and happy and scary time...all mixed into one. and you feel nothing but love for this little life you're growing and nothing but love from the people in your life who are so excited for you as well, and for this new little person, and nothing but love for the person who helped you make this person. i guess you could say i'm feeling pretty happy right now.

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