on getting married at almost 29...

why is it that in retrospect, things always seem to be so much clearer? 

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i don't know how many conversations i had with my sisters over the years about how i wanted to meet someone and get married and settle down...all of that. and they would say, you get to do so much because you're single, it will happen, just enjoy this time. 

i would say uh huh. ok. yeah. but what if? the whole "not knowing" was what got me! how do i know that i'll meet someone and get married? well i didn't. i hoped...oh how i hoped! but ultimately i didn't know. 

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a couple years ago i decided i was going to enjoy being single, gosh darn-it. that i was going to take advantage of all the freedom i had, that i could drop $1000 on a plane ticket to the other side of the world unplanned, or totally devote all my spare time to becoming entirely wrapped up in training for a half marathon. where i could focus on me, and just me. because hello...it was just me.

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so i played, i went on an epic vacation to south east asia, i signed up for a half marathon and killed it, and loved every second of it. i embraced my chance to do the things that i wanted to do. {disclaimer: yes i still wanted to meet someone and get married and have a family and i would trade it all in in a second just if!} 

but i wanted to live my life and experience things and be able to look back at all the time in my 20s i had to be a young single person and say, wow...how amazing was it? completely. not to look back and say wow...all i did was wish all the time away and feel miserable because i didn't have "what i wanted". 

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so now that i'm no longer single? it's great. i love being married. i love love. i'm enjoying being a newly married woman, planning for the future of my someday family with my hubby. but not wishing my life away either. 

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when i look back at all the things i've done, the places i've been, all that i've seen, and the experiences i've had, it's amazing. it's fantastic and humbling and gratifying. i've experienced so many things, through travel, different activities, setting new goals, during dating and getting engaged, and now in marriage. 

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would i take back all that single time now? most definitely not. 

it's helped to shape me into the person i am now. the person that my husband fell in love with and decided to spend eternity with.